Tuesday, January 20, 2009

A New Beginning and Again..

This year might be a tough year for me to go on to the next plan that I should have been thinking for some time. There are so many things that I've got to learn this year. Oh yes, for some short introduction, I'm Nel, often called as Rii, LOL. I'm taking piano classical and in my 3rd year now.

I've been thinking to furthering my musical studies at somewhere around Europe, well, it is easy to say so but somehow this thought really bothers me especially when i have to think about my lackness of performances experiences that often drove me to nervousness and I was always gone crazy after performances. It felt like tons of people looking to you as enemies and I was often thinking that they were going to laugh at my stupidity of mistakes that I've often made to my performances. Well... as time goes by, I could feel that there are some changings that have been brought to my life and my thoughts.

Last Monday, John Sharpley, my performance workshop lecturer, has thaught a lot of wonderful things I guess.. He gave us such a unique experience that we've never felt before...
He says, "Performance is like giving a gift, present, and love to your audiences, when you try to explore, you will know that you have never had such a huge desire to perform."
I guess what he told us were true... and that time when I got the chance to perform only short phrases of my recital piece, I felt that he was supporting my lackness and he showed me a lot of things and awareness that I've never realized before..

Thanks to him that every lesson I went to, I've always learned new things from him...

Though, something that still bothers me is ahead this week...

One more thing, thanks to one person that has inspired me to begin to draw out my thoughts in this blog ^^
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3 comments:

  1. marionetteJanuary 20, 2009 at 2:36 AM

    You've got talents and supports, you've got everything that people envy, rii

    keep tryin' OK?

    ^^

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  2. rii-lyJanuary 20, 2009 at 5:52 AM

    OK thank you! =D i definitely will try harder

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  3. marionetteJanuary 21, 2009 at 9:32 PM

    keep trying trying

    hehehehe

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The High Priestess

3 0Fool, -1 1Magician, 6 2Priestess, 2 3Empress, -1 4Emperor, -1 5Hierophant, 4 6Lovers, 3 7Chariot, -1 8Strength, 2 9Hermit, 2 10WheelOfFortune, 4 11Justice, 1 12HangedMan, 3 13Death, 2 14Temperance, 5 15Devil, 2 16Tower, 3 17Star, 2 18Moon, 0 19Sun, -1 20Judgement and -1 21World!

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