it's not about hurting
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
only hope + windy hearts
it's not about hurting
Friday, February 20, 2009
Natasya and her brother...
creative project 2
hmmm... besok aku akan lanjut buat 4 bait lagi... td temen blg laguku terkesan kyk lagu2 pop jepang ato kyk anime jepang >_< aduh kyknya aku jadi malu banget *kebiasaan dgr lagu jepang T_T maafin aku ko hendi, tar akan kukasi dgr introductionnya sama masuk sampe 4 baris itu, klo ga cocok bisa diubah koq =D tomorrow i'll try to work on it more after finish my teaching =)
my next creative project is about nature =.=" omg..... ini aja lum siap... aku harus cepet2! go go rii =D
Friday, February 13, 2009
"13th February" Grateful
i didn't practice enough, i didn't do enough, i didn't study enough, are these the words that often create the uneasy feeling for student?
i guess for me, it applies in certain way......
these few days, there were many certain people have drain out my passion and caused me moody maybe because of typical kind of questions?
at least, i wasn't moody to my closest ones, can you ever imagine you were in the middle of situation while things tend to push you to the rear of your standing position? why would that person be me then?
Well.. for now.. i don't wish to think unnecessary things, by the way... i am going to stop teaching music, as i'm preparing myself for the final exams, practices, projects submission and dissertation....
I am realizing that I've changed little by little because of what I've experienced in love? how about yourselves?
I have a person who always cared for me and stood up for me whenever I am down, the one who only can understand me and never make any complains to me, the reason why i mentioned that person now is because he is the only one i could think of while i'm having problems, and in fact, i'm talking to him right now, i'm feeling grateful because he could maintain his attention for me even though i often not being myself...
13 and 14, tomorrow is Valentine's day, who are you going to spend your day with? I'm going to watch concert with my friends tomorrow =) have a great one for all of you in Valentine's day, it doesn't mean that you've got to spend with the love ones, isn't it? =D it could be with friends ;)
Thursday, February 12, 2009
COLOURS
translated by: Nelly
Look how wonderful the colours of fairy
Among the seven colours of rainbow,
how many colours do you need to paint myself?
and the cloudy with the red twilight represents your smile
but for me, black is like blooming flowers
but they have becoming darker for me now
seven oceans couldn’t be painted on even though it becomes dry after then
what do they get for what I’ve painted on the canvas troughout the sky
blue is like the sea or the sky that are never going to be together
please make me a new colour, that's my request
All colours in this world couldn’t paint out our story
Only you could understand
if you could use every colours to paint me
please make me a new colour, that's my request
i hate to be true
hmmm... i'm still unsure with my broken soul, why? maybe i am not trying my best yet i am still dreaming while others are stepping ahead from me... by the way, at least today i've tried to be true *maybe 50% out of my whole mind, to tell the truth, i really hate to expose myself in public, but these few days, some situation pushed me to be...
maybe i wasn't honest enough in the past, but now i'm trying to be really honest! ok! at least nobody would be thinking as bad as what they thought about me last time, i am imperfect, yet i'm polishing myself with courage, courage and courage!
ok, i'm not mad *it seems to be... lol =P how wonderful, 3 years best friend could be broken because of unbelievable things and thoughts... wonderful.... i just need to pray for that relationship... i've never wanted to be too engaged with some people because i couldn't believe them even until now..... if they are not believing in me, who am i supposed to believe then?
tonight i will start to do my creative project, GOD, please bless me
Monday, February 9, 2009
My Heart is Yellow
for me, certain colours have certain meanings..
reflection from our hearts often draws out colours without our acknowledgement
people from outside might understand what are the colours you're holding onto
but life tends to be unique and funny while you yourselves don't understand what colours you do want...
how about love then?
red represents love? maybe not... think twice, is your love white? pink? or maybe blue?
my love is sometimes invisible, i don't really think what colour that i'm thinking but i like yellow... to tell the truth, my favourite color is blue sea, but for the feeling i'm having right now might be nearer to yellow, it doesn't have to be stood out, it doesn't represent deep meaning, but it's simple and clear, it is light and bright, i don't want to hold any red or pink colours while i know that yellow is different from them....
how about you?
simple thank you
Friday, February 6, 2009
creative project
*sigh!
terms and conditions apply! LOL
Monday, February 2, 2009
it's getting better and thank you
temen rumah ngupasin apel buat aku makan trus dr semalam disuruh minum oralit soalnya diare ga sembuh2 plus muntah, akhirnya hr ini sembuhnya XD xD *kemenangan tak terduga X( walaupun hari ini pelajaran2 penting udah kena skip huu..
thanks to cindy udah ngupasin apel dr semalam udah ngejagain aku.
malem ini cc aku bakalan datang ke singapore buat ngejagain aku, semalam aku jadi cengeng gara2 ini itu semua campur aduk, kirain keluarga aku udah lupa klo aku masi sakit, akhirnya smlm di sms cc blg dia bkalan datang XD, giliran dia datang akunya udah mau sembuh, gila aku jadi ngerepotin org sejagad belakangan ini haha tp aku senang sih, karena org2 sekeliling aku masi khawatir.
hanya bisa blg thanks to everybody deh karena perhatiannya, dan aku belajar, apa salahnya mencoba berdiri sendiri selama kita masih bisa, segala usaha itu pasti akan dihargai orang2 yang merhatiin kita.
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Your result for Which Tarot Card Represents Your Higher Self? Test...
The High Priestess
3 0Fool, -1 1Magician, 6 2Priestess, 2 3Empress, -1 4Emperor, -1 5Hierophant, 4 6Lovers, 3 7Chariot, -1 8Strength, 2 9Hermit, 2 10WheelOfFortune, 4 11Justice, 1 12HangedMan, 3 13Death, 2 14Temperance, 5 15Devil, 2 16Tower, 3 17Star, 2 18Moon, 0 19Sun, -1 20Judgement and -1 21World!
The High Priestess is arguably the most difficult of the Major Arcana to qualify with words alone, because so much of her power and ability is veiled in mystery that it is difficult for anyone to fathom it all. Every card in the Tarot speaks differently to everyone, but the Priestess seems to bear the widest range of interpretations, because she speaks directly to the Inner Voice, the unconscious mind. She is the manifestation of the unconscious and the effects of the mysterious in our everyday world. Trying to see how such mysteries work often defeats their purpose, and with this in mind, the High Priestess will be explained in as much detail as possible.
She is, above all else, the base of potential that is the source of the power wielded by the Magician. She is the unlimited potential that allows him to transform and create whatever his Will desires. Understanding this type of balance, as found between potential and creation, masculine and feminine, is the key to unlocking some of the mysteries of the High Priestess. We see the clear progression of the theme of balance; instead of integrating opposites, the Priestess keeps them separate and keeps them in balance nonetheles. She herself is the scales; this symbolism is found in many Tarot decks. Without this balance there can be no power.
The second symbolic motif found in almost all instances of the High Preistess are symbols of the unconscious mind. On the Rider-Waite version this motif is especially prominent, but most decks feature at least some lunar imagery that in turn has ties to the unconscious. Most decks that have the "twin pillars" symbology also depict a veil strung between those pillars; the High Priestess stands between us and that veil as a moderator. Behind the veil lies the powers of the unconscious, which we cannot start to understand but which, through her, we can learn to control. She is the gateway to realms that we may never fully comprehend or master.
While it would be impossible for anyone to learn all of her mysteries and secrets, the High Priestess remains as a guide to those of us willing to venture deep within our minds to discover the true powers hidden deep inside each of us. This is the same power as that depicted on the Magician, but the scope of the Priestess' power is far different. While the Magician focuses his powers outward, to achieve a meaningful effect on the world, the High Priestess shows us that we can also use these powers on an inner level, to enrich and transform ourselves. Such transformations are certainly not as dramatic as the Magician's, but they are almost always more powerful.
The High Priestess represents the mysteries of the unconscious and the Inner Voice, and her appearance is often a sign that your own intuition is trying to send you a message. The unconscious often speaks to us in symbols, so be alert around you for anything that seems out of the ordinary. This said, if you have an important decision to make when the Priestess appears, this is often a sign that the answers will be revealed to you, if you are patient and open to the whispers from within. You simply have to wait and be receptive to inner messages. Her lesson is that everything you need to know already exists within you.
The theme of dualism in the High Preistess cannot be avoided either. She is often a sign of the Shadow, the negative portion of your personality that no one sees, and that you yourself could be unaware of. (In this sense, the term 'negative' does not refer to evil, just the opposite polarity from the positive and expressive part of your personality.) If you accept the Shadow within you, its powers will be open to you if you wish to use them. In most people the Shadow side is the more passive of the two, and the Priestess can therefore advocate a need for passivity in a situation. It is not always necessary to act; sometimes goals can be realized through inaction.
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